Journey To The End Of Night
Adventures in Active Addiction and Recovery — A Philosophical Perspective

Archive for June 2008

Comments Got Wiped Out…

June 11, 2008

Something happened with WordPress last night.  I was unable to get to my dashboard and after support patched it up all the comments on this blog had been wiped out. Typically, I try to respond to all.  So thanks to those who left input — you’re not being ignored! In fact, I’ll address some of […]

Stepping On Cigarettes — IT DOESN’T WORK. HOW Could this be true? AND WHY?

June 10, 2008

The day I was released from substance abuse treatment, I thought I’d have difficulty finding meetings — not so much locating them, but finding my way to the meeting once I got there. A friend told me, “Just look for the motley crew smoking cigarettes in the parking lot or outside some doorway. Odds are […]

The Neuro-Programmer 2, I-Doser, and Other Audio-Visual Entrainment Systems For Meditation, Self-Hypnosis, and Natural Highs

June 8, 2008

I began using audio-visual entrainment systems and neuro-feedback to boost my meditation, relieve stress, accelerate the neurological healing process, relieve stress, and more – with SPECTACULAR results – shortly before I got clean. I’ll be reviewing several software packages over the couple of days, including: Transparent Corporations NeuroProgrammer2, Mind Stereo, and Brain Sound Studio and […]

I Stand At A Crossroads

June 8, 2008

I wish I’d begun this blog six months ago. It would be nice to be able to look back and trace my development. I’ve come to a crossroads in my journey. For several months I chaired meetings, did H&I service work, attended meetings nearly everyday. Nevertheless, as I said before, my awakening departs from the […]

Religious Bias in The New NA Literature — Journal of Rational Recovery Reprint

June 7, 2008

 In an earlier post I described my disatisfaction with the steps as presented in the literature of NA and AA (CA uses the AA ‘Big Book’).  Don’t get me wrong here — I LOVE this fellowship.  My fellow NA members saved my life.  Nevertheless, as my head has cleared and I’ve matured in the program, […]


June 7, 2008

I came across a fairly extensive collection of speaker tapes, mostly NA AA & CA workshops and keynote speakers from conventions. To the best of my knowledge — I’ve not listened to all these — they all work. Except — the one I most wanted to hear, Jimmy K., founder of Narcotics Anonymous. Bummer. Maybe […]

The Snafu Principle: Honesty — To Whom do We Owe It?

June 6, 2008

The anonymous fellowships, NA, AA, and CA, are programs of rigorous honesty. If I were the most powerful man in the world, or the strongest, or perhaps even the most insipidly stupid, it would be easy to tell anyone and everyone the truth. What the hell would I have to fear? When power is real, […]

Upcoming Articles…

June 6, 2008

Since ‘Journey To The End of Night’ is so new, I’m short on content at the moment, but plan to post new articles on a daily basis, at least one every day. Future articles already in the works include: ‘An Addict Named Webster Helps Define Spirituality’ ‘The Snafu Principle: Honesty — To Whom Do We […]

Recovery Without Deity — The Convalesence of an Atheist

June 6, 2008

My name is not important and I’m a dope fiend, been one for over twenty years – that is, until I bottomed out and checked into a rehabilitation center almost exactly 180 days ago today. Better check yourself here – if you want to read textbook program material you ought to just click off this […]

Tweedle Dum, Tweedle Dee, and John McCain Makes Three…

June 6, 2008

I prefer strong weather. I’d like for a tsunami to hit Japan next week. I express my preference by pissing in Lake Michigan. That’s about how effective voting is. Never mind the flip-side of the same coin nature of our alternatives… A very muchness of the sameness presented as choice. I’m proud to say that […]